I am forgiven, still I struggle

Lord, You have brought me through the storm, You have shown me my own frailty, and You have been faithful to forgive me and still lead me, I should be stronger than ever still I struggle. I struggle with careless words, I struggle to find value, I struggle with doing what I know to be right and good even though You provide opportunity to give back what You have taught me. I know this is the battle You have prepared me for, so I pray for Your strength and for spiritual vision. Cause the ears and eyes of my spirit to be alert and ever watching for snares of the enemy, for they come in many shapes and forms. Lord, don’t let the things I say be used by the enemy to wound others and if I am misunderstood provide the opportunity to set things right and bless the ears of the hearer so that Your will may be done. Help me to love others with the love You have shown me, cause me to strive to please You when all I want to do is give up and walk away. There is no hero in this life except for You O Lord! What do we have that You have not provided? If we are loved, if people are attracted towards us what could we possibly boast about that we have not received from You? Some have understanding and insight, while others have the ability to sway large groups of people yet neither can say they got there without You, the things people are attracted to are bits of You and they don’t even realize it. Help me not to compare one gift to another for all good things originate from You and You have purposed each one for a time and place of Your choosing. You O Lord, have planted a piece of Your puzzle inside the heart of man, for inside of me is an answer to a question that leads others to discover who You are! I am but one small piece of the big picture You have planned for humanity and if I never come to terms with that this question will go unanswered. Lord please don’t let me fail, help me keep my eyes upon You.