"Waiting On Your Love" by Justin McRoberts
There's nothing so heavy, Weighing down the soul
As the weight of nothing, Worth my strength to hold
There's no pain so cutting, No battle as in vain
As the constant battle, To avoid the pain
You were poor when you were born
You could see Your Father clearly
Through the nothing that You owned
Free me from these binds, Lord
I am choking on the gifts this world gives, Jesus
I am waiting on Your love
So as Your Word has promised, I must clearly choose
To lose my life and gain Your love, Or love my life and lose
You were poor when you were born
You could see Your Father clearly
Through the nothing that You owned
Free me from these binds, Lord
I am choking on the gifts this world gives, Jesus
I am waiting on Your love
Free me Lord to live this life
Believing all I really have is You
I am waiting on Your love
(bridge)
Man verses himself, Man verses machine
Man verses the world, Mankind verses me
The struggles go on, The wisdom I lack
The burdens keep piling upon my back
So hard to breath, to take the next step
The mountain is high, I wade in the depths
Yearning for grace and hoping for peace
Dear God increase
My dearest daughter and sons do you remember when I told each of you about God having a new name for you? I had just returned from learning about the “Wild at Heart” message from John Eldredge in 2004. Do you remember what those names were? Burgandy yours was “Freedom”, Isaac yours was “Warrior”, and Malachi yours was “Builder”. Lately God has reminded me of this time of discovery, for they were not names that I gave you but I believe they came from your Father in Heaven. As we have relationship with God He gives us new names that are descriptive of the purpose He has placed in each of us. One of the names He gave me about the same time was, “Messenger”. Though as we continue to grow in Him we receive new names that have new meaning they never contradict the names He previously gave us, if they were indeed from Him.
Burgandy look around you, you have no binds other than the ones you have chosen. Not all binds are bad, you have a loving husband and that is good but you are independent and make up your own mind about things unhindered by what others think. Isaac, the fact that you are excelling in the ROTC, even though you were told multiple times you had no future in the military because of your injury, is really no surprise to me for God knew His plans for you way before any of that happened and I am blessed He let me in on it. Malachi, I used to think you were destined to be an architect or something but I look at you and realize you faithfully build relationships and mend what is broken, what comes natural for you I’ve seen many who were trained do less. I want you three to know that it is no wonder you are my children because your names are my names too but what you do with them will be far greater than I could have ever done.
This song has been playing over and over in my mind as of late. It has touched me deeply as I come to this point in my journey for the Lord has brought me to this choice – will I love my life and lose it or lose my life to gain His love? You see sometimes age is required for certain types of wisdom as I have come face to face with my own depravity and I understand better now exactly what relationship with Jesus is worth, no wonder He said this,
Luke 14:26-28 NLT "If you want to be My disciple, you must hate everyone else by comparison—your father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters—yes, even your own life. Otherwise, you cannot be My disciple. (27) And if you do not carry your own cross and follow Me, you cannot be My disciple. (28) "But don't begin until you count the cost. For who would begin construction of a building without first calculating the cost to see if there is enough money to finish it?
To truly follow Jesus it costs us everything but in the end what we give up is nothing in comparison to His great love. Be encouraged children, God has great plans for you but you will never know the depths of His love without the kind of relationship that cost so much! I believe we (people) medicate our pain and/or hunger for lesser things to the point we can no longer experience the richness of His love that we once knew before we filled our warehouses with stuff (read Luke 12:13-21).
You were poor when you were born
You could see Your Father clearly
Through the nothing that You owned
Free me from these binds, Lord
I am choking on the gifts this world gives, Jesus
I am waiting on Your love
Free me Lord to live this life
Believing all I really have is You
I am waiting on Your love
